it'd be making mistakes.
Just the day before yesterday, Daniel said that there was still slots for missions trip. I didn't really dare asking my parents about it because they'd probably give me a 'hairdryer treatment'. In addition, i have to study. However, I knew the trip would benefit me alot. Thus, i asked God to change my heart and make me fight for it. He did nothing but reminded me of my people. If i'm going to learn, my people are going to benefit. It seemed as if it was really God who was was prompting me to give it a try and ask my parents as i suddenly remembered Shirley's CLM teaching - courage.
With faith and courage, i threw the request at my dad. As i explained, i knew God was with me. I went on to mention about the HongKong LC unknowingly. To my suprise, my dad said he'd think about it. I went back to my room, unsure of what will happen but i knew God was in control. Minutes later, my dad came in and said that he'll let me go for HongKong LC instead because HongKong is safer than KuChing. To me, the reason was lame. But precisely because its lame, i know its God.
As fear comes, courage follows with faith.
Faith and courage comes together.
Just like Jesus and love.
Don't they?
Christianity is my religion
Spot the irony.
so that i'll be kept in God's plan.
In just one day; i was humbled, i was reminded of who is control and i learnt how to take small failures in order to do big things. I can bravely say that not many would experience what i felt when i got back my Os chinese results. Perhaps God planned for me to be victorious this way, all i need to do is to follow.
Take control,
For You're the only one who knows the destination for me.
Everyone could see that i was relying on You, You know how much i did. I know You have the best plan for me, i know i have to follow it. Its Your plan that i'm following, not victory road. Even if i don't see it, i have to follow. Perhaps this is what faith is called.
Nevertheless, Lord i thank You.
I've really learnt alot today.
I'll follow.
I'd be leading CD1.0 with the sec3s and 2s under me. Before this, i thought life would be easier after CD1 had grown and i'd be able to concentrate on my studies. Somehow, God planned otherwise. With more people under me, the greater is the responsibility. Many people are watching me, be it in ministry or studies. This pressure i'm receiving is tremendous. In order to "survive", i'd need lots of wisdom, discipline, time and effort...
Honestly, i've got none.
But one thing i'm sure that i have,
my love for God.
(Tues: Chinese Os results.)
But God, i know You're going to move...