With faith, I'd fly.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

{flew in at 7:18 PM

"I want, but i can't."
I hate to say this but, this ironic statement best describes my feelings now.

I want a calling, a vision so greatly impacted in my heart. So that i'll come out so convicted that i'm able to put aside everything just to follow You. Making important decisions all for You.

I'm looking forward to the day when i truly sing:

" You are my world
You are my God
And I lay down my life for You "

Friday, May 23, 2008

{flew in at 10:53 PM

If you think that you're pushing yourself hard enough, think again.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

{flew in at 5:33 PM

Gotten my results back today. In my opinion, my results were like crap. But thanks to God's grace, many others did much worse. LOL. And so, today didn't turn out as bad as i expected. Even though i know that this is not my best, but it is evident that i did alot more for this term's MYE. The surprising thing is that i'm happy and satisfied, probably because i know that i've at least made some effort. If not for God, i'd have done worse.

My L1R5 of 24 and failing of 2 subjects looked almost like an "above-average" result throughout the level. Imagine how badly we've done. Lol.

Some day back, one of my sheeps shared with me something he learnt,
"In the midst of tough love and changing, what do you see?
Tough? or Love? "

Sunday, May 18, 2008

{flew in at 7:01 PM

Back from the hockey fiesta at Boon Lay. We got 4th in the U-17 category, which was not bad considering the fact that we're off-season for 2months. But losing only in the semis and the 3rd/4th placing match sucks. Whatsmore by getting 4th position, you get nothing. But oh well, i'd rather be concentrating on CD1 and DSA now.
We had a new convert yesterday! A sec2 tracker named Justin. I can see God starting to move as we get ourselves ready. Getting every single cg member to grow is key, as the group grows as fast as its slowest growing member. So God, please help me make sure of that.

Should i..

DSA through
Soccer or Hockey?

DSA to
SAJC, ACJC, ACSI(ib)
or go CJ thru studies and play soccer?

Crap, i haven't made up my mind yet.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

{flew in at 8:29 PM

We won sports fiesta, Manu won the EPL. See that link? Haha.

Friday, May 02, 2008

{flew in at 10:12 PM

It always bothers me whenever i can't figure out what God is trying to do. For example, an unanswered prayer. I've always taken much faith in what God says and what i've told Him, that is why i get disappointed whenever there is an unanswered prayer. But everytime, i'd try to figure out the reason/plan that God had in mind when He didn't answer me. Often, i'd be able to figure out. However, there is always times whereby i can't find the "reason".

I asked God to give me something during today's prayermeet. I thought He'd just give me a random thought and leave me there to figure out myself. This time, it was different. Different in the sense that it was pin-point and straight to the point, it's also something that seems to be what i've been trying to find out( the "reason"). Sy talked about sincerity of your heart during worship and the phone call thing today(check here). I felt kinda "guilty" as i know that its quite often whereby i only go to God when i have a demand. I don't ask sincerely, i demand things from Him. I demanded victory, i demanded miracles, etc. And the "reason" why He refuses to answer me might be because he wants me to be desperate. Desperate in asking Him to turn the situation around or desperate in finding out the "reason". Only when i'm desperate, i know i'm in no position to demand anything from God and thus, my prayer become more sincere.

When you're in love, you'd long for anything from the one you love. Even if it is just hearing their voices over the phone. Similarly, God longs for our heart-felt prayers. He loves us so much that He would actually break his own heart( by not answering prayers and breaking ours) in exchange for our "voices". This reflects how insincere i've been towards Him.

Your words that hit me left me speechless. I could say nothing except 3 words; I am sorry.