Saturday, January 27, 2007
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SJI group will grow, believe me. I'll work even harder now all for Him and for salvation. I want and i will see josephians taking up at least 2 rows in nexus. And i believe we can do it cause we will all work hard. Everyone will be with me and not giving up. go sji...
Inter-class next week, everything seems to be going right for 322 but all of a sudden i've a feeling that we will collapse when the time comes. Like what happen to the eleveners last year and the year before last. I dont know why i have this weird feeling...
Ex3 service today, the song was sang by pastor shirley. All of a sudden, everything came back to me, including you. Luckily i didnt tear, maybe cause i have no more to? Well, after today it seems like i'm still trying to get out of this instead of having gotten out long ago. But i'll still try, not by hardening my heart but by surrendering it to God...
Who Am I-Casting Crowns Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth,Would care to know my name, Would care to feel my hurt. Who am I? That the bright and morning star, Would choose to light the way, For my ever wondering heart. Not because of who I am. But because of what you've done. Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are. Chorus: I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord you catch me when I'm falling, And you told me who I am. I am yours. I am yours. Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin Would look on me with love And watch me rise again Who am I? That the voice that calm the sea, Would call out through the rain, And calm the storm in me. Not because of who I am. But because what of youve done. Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are. Chorus: I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord you catch me when I'm falling, And you told me who I am. I am yours. Not because of who I am. But because of what you've done. Not because of what I've done. But because of who you are. Chorus: I am a flower quickly fading, Here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean, A vapor in the wind. Still you hear me when I'm calling, Lord you catch me when I'm falling, You told me who I am. I am yours. I am yours. Whom shall I fear?Whom shall I fear? 'Cuz I am yours. I am yours.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
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We will turn BIG, even bigger than the biggest;Cause we're uni†ed...101!
Saturday, January 20, 2007
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"kiffy crab"!?!? haha wth...but anyway, God woke me up and let me realise that its my nature to be cheerful and a crapper... -.- and "its a blessing to be a blessing" to be able to cheer people up with my crap... i became a 'daoist' for one day and im freakin not use to it...so conclusion, christian better =D...haha if you get it.Thanks JEM for the short talk which gave me the direction of where i should be heading to walk right with God again... so yes im gonna start anew but not as a cold & dao ass... but a crappy & cheerful keef, keith, beef or kif la... haha kiffy crab -.- clara you lame..
not to be affected by relationship problems,
no more hatred,
no more "coldness" ,
BUT the new HOT keith/keef/beef/kif =D
he must be more humble so yea not HOT...haha
Thursday, January 18, 2007
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I've thought through it,
I've decided to go for a change,
One complete one,
No longer the old keef,
But the new keith,
Call me what you want,Keith or Keef or Kif or Beef,
I don't give a shit.the last tear was shed for you, and no more will i tear for anyone else or even you,
but except for,
GOD.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
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Throat infection... and im like on the verge of getting a fever anytime actually im having already i think but just pretend i dont cause i wanna go school if not i will never ever finish all the homework.. ARGH... walao damn stress now, school work, hockey, CAB3 growth, my own spiritual growth....
school work, maths is like so complicated now.. and it take so long to do one sum.. not like sec 2.. wth and the recent maths test i only got 3/25 WTH!! my maths suck now and there is so many work to do... my others suck too, History, i dont know a shit about history.. Geog, freaking troublesome.. Chem, boring teacher.. Physics, i lost the freaking books confirm get screwed by Eric Lam...
ARGH!!!!!! missing school sucks...going school sucks too... homework homework homework when im sick -.-
Lord, help me in this and carry me through all this
I believe i can endure through all problems cause i have You with me..
And i will shout out all my problems to You,rely on You
Cause You're my Lord..
Monday, January 15, 2007
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Walao walao walao!!! today is definitely not my day... dont know how many suay things happened to me today...1st, cause my school was having orientation camp and i had to clear my table by last friday as the sec 1s are using the classroom to sleep in. Then, on thurs i was too lazy to bring home all the books and so i left some of the books in the recycling box so that my form teacher doesnt see...And you know what happened? today i went back to class to find the box GONE, SOME IDIOT WENT TO TAKE THE BOX AND GO RECYCLE.. WTH!!!! in the end i have to go buy all the books i've "donated" to the recycling bin again...2nd, today is just the 3rd week of school and i got sent out of class -.- cos i didnt bring my history text book... and she gave us one more essay to do today again.. so in total i have 2 essay to do which is freaking alot... haha im dead...3rd, soccer during recess and i missed a OPEN GOAL... no one there only me and the goal and i missed -.- WTH!!!! i better wake up and play properly tomoro..
4th, hockey trg! erm quite slack today BUT i missed like dont know how many thousand of deflections...JIALAT i better get back on form... and wth... i only managed to score like a few? thats chao little la...ARGH...i think now i will just concentrate on hockey and soccer? play to my best always... yes, it can be done and im definitely better than what i am now... keith! keith! keith! YEAH! haha
oya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL =)
Sunday, January 14, 2007
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Orientation camp '07 (1o7 grp 2)... camp was great! and yea will miss my "children" haha... at the start of the camp i was like, stupid sec1s... but after that.. yea you guys sort of made my day.. thanks...and sorry i couldn't be with you all until the closing ceremony.. had to go service which is more important.....oya and i saw my primary school good friend's brother... aloysius lim.. haha 111 YEAH! eleveners all rock... haha so you should too...=)
Again camp brought back alot of memories for me personally.. it brought back 211,church camp and someone to me... cause it was when i had all the camps that period i got closer to that someone huh... and 211, the brotherhood i had with youwei and jem in camp really made me miss the past brotherhood we had in 211 thats why i even went to youwei's class to sleep even though i had to sleep with my sec 1s and also sometimes i regret why i didnt cherish the time we had together in the past, now that its all gone we're all in different classes...church camp, i missed the spirit all of us had and also the fun we had.. taupoks and stuff...but at least church camp im gonna have one coming soon in june again =) but for 211, its all memories left... taupoks in class, talking back to teachers, soccer in class, the retarded games like charge, the 211 wave, breaking of chairs and other stuff, getting half the class sent out cos of undone homework... time really flies, it really seemed as if ytd was just my own sec1 orientation camp when i didnt know anyone in my class.... the short chat with youwei on saturday night really made me think alot although its short... it brought me back to my past, one by one all came back... not only relationships, but also 211 & church & my hockey team brotherhood, our 06' season where we were just that close, our trainings, our victories which made everyone go wow... 14-0, 9-1 my hat trick, my goals, my #17 ...our retarded cheer in church camp, our retared bombing of ourselves in meal time in orientation camp, our inter-class soccer which i screwed up, our copying sessions at the 211 table in the morning although it still happens now but the feeling is different cos the classes are different.... looking at aloysuis reminds me of myself when i was in sec 1... stylo hair, stylo specs... and short pants... quite quiet at the start, more to myself and the friends i know then it reminds me of me as 111 chairman, 211 CCA rep.... thats y i asked aloysuis to try and go be the chairman of 111... it will be a wonderful exprience...Afterall, 11ners '05'06, church and that someone really made great impacts in my life and also friends like youwei,weijang,jem,gabho,alastair,leonger,cabawatan,elvin,kenneth,lumpy from 211 and also my church friends! i guess i will never forget them...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
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#29!, #29!, #29!, #29!, #29!,YEAH!!! All for [you] and i will prove it to [you]. I don't care if you're worth it or not
Lord, i rely on you for miracles. Only You can help me, carry me through this wait. Now that im all alone, You the one i have with me. No matter how long it is, i know You will always be with me cause you're my Father that loves me too much to let me take all this on my own. Yes, i know i can endure through this wait and yes, you will be back, this time thinking properly and truely loving me like how my Lord does. Cause i have my Lord with me to overcome all the problems and to have you back.
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I've been pondering over this question and i haven got the answer. Issit better for me not to think and just be happy with the answer i have now? Or should i continue to find out?
Alot of things to concentrate on now,
-getting people to know God **
- one row of SJI converts in one service (7 people) **
-hitting my target of being a CL by June *
-bond with my new class as fast as possible
-train and get back my fitness & form asap
-to get in to the U-18 team for hockey *
-get back my good grades for studies
-clear my pile of homework which includes holiday ones
-clear my doubts and know the real truth **
Just hoping for miracles, and quite a few of them.
Praying for things to change, for hockey and something else
And shit, SJI hockey only got jersey number until #20 -.- My #29!!!!! Argh...
Monday, January 08, 2007
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Just one day and u got over it.... thats very very fast..you told me how serious you were and how special i was from your ex(s).Now you just need equally as much time to forget me or mayb even lesser, ask me to treat you like my sister. You think its so easy!? and to think u can give me this " =D ", its just this "=D " that really hurt me. You could actually take it as nothing happened before, like everything was just a dream and so was i. You told me its all nothing actually, you really think its nothing? If you were true, it wont be nothing and to me, it means alot alot alot. And its only just 3 days from the last time we had a close talk where we told each other how we needed each other now you're finding all the emo and sweet stuff weird.... wow! its only 3 days and everything is weird to you? hey "sister" ya i may talk to you normally but wad do i do after the conversation when i am all alone at night? nothing else but to tear... and why do i still wanna talk to you if its so hard for me? cause i wanna talk to you, i cant bear to see you online but not talk to you...i've fallen deep and i cant out.
you left me fighting all alone, you left me half way through the wait when you're the one who first asked me if i was sure.
we promised to wait for each other and overcome everthing that comes our way but now,i am all alone and i ought to hate you but i cant bring myself to,
cause i love you
do you? or should i say had you even loved me before?
29/11/2006; do you even remember?
Sunday, January 07, 2007
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Well, it seems like things has really taken a change but yea in a bad way...
It wasnt as strong as i tot afterall, jus one person coming back and its now so shaky...Was it me that wasnt true enough or is it Daddy's plans? I may say yes i dont mind u being with who as long as u are happy im happy. Yes i may be somehow true...but the fact is i dont want u to leave me... i want u to be with me happily... i really hope that what u once said were all crap and rubbish and carries no meaning cause wad i said to u are true and u knw it... u said im too nice to u.. thats because i dont bear to be mean to u... and i promised u b4 i wont be mean to u and i mean it... cos i care and i love u... i want the past back.. the past that we were together without any worries... i want you back
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Is this wad things have to be? Why must it be this way? I knw we've crossed the line but we cant help it and Daddy dont blame her...its just me, i really love her.. How long will the wait be? Even after the wait will she still love me? I dont know, I cant tell, but it seems like no. But i dont blame her... i cant expect her to wait for me for so long... even if she doesnt love me anymore, its ok. As long as she once did, its enough and i wont dare to ask for more..
I will never forget all the important things i told you...Cause its all true...Its hard to let you go... Its impossible to forget you... I will wait, because of you... I will wait till that very day comes no matter how long and how tough.... And i will still love you maybe not as much, maybe even more, but i can confirm i will still love you... that's my promise to my special person.
what about yours?,hur
Thursday, January 04, 2007
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sch started! and guess wad, i got the Michael house teacher for my form teacher... i tot he was damn fierce but he turn out to be DAMN COCK and DAMN LAME(he sees this and im dead for my rest of the 2 years in his class) but yea i know that if i try not handing up homework i will be dead too..although hes so cock i dont dare mess around... and SCIENCE lessons are DAMN BORING... wah i nearly slept in chem... physics was ok... serious and no jokes... argh sec3 life is getting scary.... dont hand up homework and im dead... not like last year argh... homework is like nothing to 211...
And the team for the hockey U-18 was selected.. and haha as expected im not inside...THADDEUS!! U TOOK MY #17!!! argh i missed a whole lot of training la... it seems super unlikely that i can get into the B Div team either... unless the moment i get back for training next week i become super on-form...and perform damn good in some position... but how can it be la... i never touch my stick for how long... well, i guess i've to see what God has in plan for me then..
im still waiting and i wont give up... you should not too...
Monday, January 01, 2007
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MY HAIR!!!!! freak la.. my hair is like freaking short now.. -.- but yea have to cut, if not 'J liew' will make noise... and I'm just scared that my hair colour is obvious...shit... anyway... new year, new nice people and asses in class,new teacher,long pants.... school's gonna be different and no longer the 211 where we can do wadeva we want... and 2007 for me didn't start off very well but the more problems, the more of His power I'm gonna taste! Amen to that...
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wad a dumb start for new year... but at least it showed me how i should really thank jem to bring me to know christ....if not i would have been like my cousins..smoking away huh...oh! and it also how transparent i was..
seems like im just transparent and extra
